Its been a long time since I painted. I think, its been a long time since I wrote, blogged or did anything creative. I think ever since I moved to Bangalore, I have not felt isolation. I have not felt the emptiness of space, the need to confront my thoughts in the sharp cacophony of silence. No doubt, I have enjoyed companionship. But I also have a dual need of isolation. I am not clear on how I should manage this. With routine, families, responsibilities - how does one find some time to be truly alone? Travel usually affords some alone time. But I am not clear on how to manage the routine from taking over.
I have enjoyed the last couple of weeks of being alone. Its strange, the first few days were difficult. But I have settled into me, myself and realised how much I have missed this. I feel more centered, more in harmony. So here are the things I promise to do over the next few months:
1. Complete a difficult painting composition. I want to move away from the landscapes and still lives and do something that is compositionally complex.
2. Blog more about thoughts and ideas. I have a theory of equilibrium, I want to write a post on that sometime.
3. Stay focused on the start up. And also write about it.
4. Not get my many complicated relationships get bigger than me. Sometimes, its a lot harder just being female - just way too many nuanced emotions to cope with. I promise to be on top, for once :-)
Hopefully, I will write more on random thoughts and ideas. I have missed this.
